過去日記第十六弾・i have someone...

えぇ～っと。。。相当好きだったいうのは伝わるかな(笑)

現在、他にお付き合いしている人がいる今でもこの言葉を偽ろうという気持ちはありません。

ただ今も、文中の彼女のことが好きかどうかと聞かれれば疑問符が浮かぶであろうことも否めません・・・自分は何人もの女の人を泣かせられるほど器用ではないので。。

【2007/05/21 20:24】

i have someone for whom i can throw all of things belonging to me...

i cannot believe myself when i am talking with her, going somewhere with her, looking at her, and being with her.

every moment that i am with her is very unique to me.


even though i have lived with myself since i was born, she has let me be aware of myself a lot more and given me torches for the new road.

without her i have nothing but all in darkness.



Despite the failure of my second telling my feeling to her, I have unconsciously proposed to her..

i admitted her requirement to marry which was that until her 24th birthday, Xmas, i have to have a job(its not because i must have ability to afford household. it's bacause she likes men working...)

it seemed like impossible to me because mostly likely i will be a college student still at that time.. but i said i will afford it doing both to be a student and to earn enough money for her.


Today, sincerely, i want to declare that i will be a man who has an ability to make her happy as possible as i can do for her.

so by the Xmas in 2009, i will be a millionaire for her, and i will ask her to marry me at that day.

i do not want her to look at how much i will have earned for her, but how much i will could have done for her!


If you wish, i can be anything for you!

do you understand?


As i said before to you, i truly need you.

come with me!

and follow me!